Such pointless.

My eyes are open.  I can see now though i am not looking.  I can listen,  not hear.  I know now,  understand not comprehend.  I just what to be overwhelmed,  be loved and to love.  I am not brave but i am strong.  I need more than i want.  My enough is not universal but it suffice. I open the door i never knew was locked,  i stopped forcing open the one locked.  I feel life more than i live it.  Living has more than one way.  I will close my eyes as long as i desire and i will miss things.  Don't worry they are not for me.  The solemn speaks too much.  The warmth flows deep if you let it,  shut out the noise.  You are no longer hollow,  there are still holes but not so empty anymore.  Right this time i feel it,  i feel all around,  the revolving space.  The outside doesn't define the inside. Even words don't mean nothing.  The curves,  crevices and dents meant too much.  My heart can't block it but my hands can,  you can turn up the volume but i will still shut you out.  A second just passed,  and so is another day.  So busy jumping,  flying and soaring,  addicted to the pleasures of height,  i watched you. Ask me.  I've seen everything.  Feelings too fast,  words can't cover.  I remember how it's done all the more i remember how it feels.  It matters,  it is not to understand but it matters.  Smell of pleasure and confusion,  it goes best with the taste of disappointment and pride. I have never been at bliss being lost,  i was lost then i found the way back. Then it is unreal and ugly again.  Universal reality.